And so the search for meaning continues.....

And so the search for meaning continues.....

So dear blog it has been 2 weeks since my last post and by my procrastinating standards that is a damn miracle! Since my last post, I have sat in for 3 interviews, which is mildly pathetic I know, but job hunting for something worth while is not easy. I feel vastly under-qualified in a sea of sharks and snarky bitches. Such fun! It is hard to have the motivation to even get dressed some days such is the overwhelming sense of inadequacy that I find trying to get a proper job. No one wants to employ me! And still I press on half-heartedly and resolute in the fact I will not submit to working in Asda just yet. My mother was mad for suggesting I go work part-time in a pub. But a job is a job, no matter how crappy. Or maybe that's the cabin fever talking (must leave house, must leave house!)

Anyway, enough wasting time from me and onward to search again for the ever allusive CAREER!

So basically...

I am the crappiest blogger in history. And yet I am not surprised :-) But my procrastination is not without reason.......
Life can sometimes do that to you though, sweep you away onto other paths that you never expected.
Disrupt all you're best laid plans until you no longer remember that way back to where you were. I guess that's just something we all have to deal with, those annoying or sometimes damaging things that crop up every so often that  blind side us and make us re-evaluate what is important, and what can wait. And maybe that's my excuse for not writing this blog like I intended to do, it all started so promisingly but other aspects of the daily grind takes precedence. And yet, to allow this to happen is wrong. No matter how busy we become, it is vitally important that you don't lose sight of what makes us happy. The small little intrinsically minute acts that enrich your existence, the details that make you, you. Not to wax lyrical upon the subject, as I am want to do! But I think the biggest thing I've learned so far in the last year is that it doesn't matter how stupid or inane the hobby may seem to others, if you enjoy doing it, keep it up! So maybe now I'm unemployed, and so far have no other pressing matters to attend to, I shall endeavour to actually write more regularly on this forum!

Now onto the more pressing matter of my unemployment! Oh yes, it is such fun to have NOTHING to do.....I have only been without a job for 10 days and I am already getting cabin fever as well as a slight case of lethargy. Even now despite the fact I slept approximately 10 hours last night I could quite happily go for a nap right now.



So seeing as I now have the total motivation of a sponge, it is difficult for me now to do anything as, well there is no time limit in which to accomplish it. Quite frankly it is the procrastinators dream. But even still it sucks balls to be this unproductive, and it has at least made me appreciate how much I actually want a job. Just not the one I had before. For ,while the company and work mates I had were lovely, the banking sector was never really going to be my final career. I'm too spontaneous and distractable for that. It is funny that though my bosses like me and all said I was a very bright girl, they also told me. DO NOT DO BANKING. So it would be a little idiotic of me to go back down that road. So here I am though, applying to every applicable media intern-ships I can find (to varying success), steadfast in my belief that I will get some kind of job, hopefully!

Enough lolly-gaggying by me, I have interviews to prepare for!

Until the next time dear blog,
Salut!